demam

I caught a really bad cold yesterday. It was the worst cold I've ever had.
Last night, I lay on my bed from 12am to 4am- couldnt sleep.
I woke up and went to the kitchen and I ate nasi ayam.
and now, it's 5am..masih tak boleh tidur.

All about the people I love.

Ibu is a great woman. She's the greatest woman I've ever known and I haven't met anyone like her yet. She's different from other women as far as I can see, she's strong, she's good at many things- cooking, cleaning, decorating, studying, gardening, engineering, history, talking, socialising with people. She taught me a lot about 'life' and how to be a 'person'. Without her, maybe I'm not as good as I am now.

Ayah is a caring father. He cares about his family so much and he sacrifices a lot for his family. Although sometimes he's a bit garang, but now when I've grown up I realized that that what taught us to be a good 'human being'. Ayah also tak kedekut, if ibu refuses to give me money, I'd ask from ayah and sure he would give me plenty :)

Abang lagi tak kedekut. He likes to spend and spend and spend. He's more close to Raihan rather than me because they have the same interests like movies, kaki cinemas, gadgets, etc. He's also a nice person, very nice, very humble, and very patient. He resembles ibu's character a lot.

Raihan has been my sister as well as my best friend since she was born. We share a lot of things, and we had never had the chance to live in a separate room (that's why we have been really close kot). She knows almost everything about me which can cause problems sometimes. We argue often, but not for long. She's a little bit childish sometimes, she said to me once 'I dont wanna grow up. I wanna stay young'

The person I'm missing the most is my Syafiq. Whenever I hear his voice, whenever I see something that reminds me of him, whenever I think about him..I smile. Sometimes I cry too..sbb rindu. I feel safe and secure whenever I'm with him. He's the most perfect guy I've ever known, and I love everything about him. He had sacrificed a lot for me, his time, his part time job, his patience...but I know he did all these things because he loved me. If there's any chance, he will be the first person I want to meet. Syafiq has made my life so beautiful more than anyone else had, and I'm in love with him :)

Hanis is my friend since I was in darjah 5 and she was in darjah 6 at that time. We went to the same school (Sek Tmn Universiti 2), and she's my neighbour in Johor Bahru. We both have two different characters; she's a hot famous girl and every boy loves to get to know her, and I am more quiet and laid back and not many people notice me, she's daring and very fashionable. But we also have some things in common, we love cats, we love dresses, we love 'lovely-lace' and we have the same taste too. She's a nice friend, she's caring, and we had shared many things too. I miss her.

Akmal is another close friend of mine. I love talking stupid and nonsense and making fun of him. He used to be the person I'd tell everything to if I had problems or was heartbroken by my ex, so he knows a lot about me and Kamarul. He's a very nice friend, he's good at advising, and he's matured too. We used to go to the same secondary school, but were in different classes. It's a shame that we didn't get the chance to meet up when I was in Malaysia.

Mr Coyle is my favourite teacher ever. I used to be in his class for 3 years, and he was like a father to me in school. He's the coolest teacher I've ever had, and he really concerns about his students. He had supported and helped me a lot in everything, and without him, I wouldn't be as good artist as I am today. When I left school, he asked me to call him Kevin because he didn't like to be called Mr or Sir, and I said to him 'once youre my teacher, forever you'll be my teacher, that's how we respect teachers in Islam..and I'll call you Mr Coyle, I dont care if you like it or not' and then he called me Miss Omara (an Irish name which means God chosen people).

:)

I came across Siti Nurhaliza new poster album today, and I saw her picture above. The first thing that came into my mind was 'Wahh cantiknyaaa baju dia! nanti kahwin nak pakai baju mcm ni la'. And I mentioned about this 10 times already to ibu.

Btw autumn is here. And again, this is the 3rd time Raya Aidilfitri falls in autumn, and the fifth time I'm celebrating Raya in Glasgow. I wish everyone a very happy Eid Mubarak, Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri. Maaf zahir dan batin.

my apple crumble

At first, I thought I wanted to do strawberry crumble for buka puasa, but unfortunately I couldnt find any strawberries from the shop, so I decided to do apple crumble instead. Here are some 'in the making of my crumble' photos (look from below to top, I accidentally uploaded it the wrong way round) ;

Done!

kerja menabur2

kerja menggaul2

kerja menggoreng2

melancholy

Some people in my past still make me disturbed and uncomfortable.
Just go away.

weekend

Ika slept over at my place last night. It was fun! We had a long conversation about some girls stuff until 2am. We talk and talk and talk. I listened a lot to her stories (but I told mine a little only lol). I was so tired coz I spent almost the whole day outside, carboot-ing, shopping asda with ibu, then we made kuih ketayap, then we rushed over to Toryglen Community Centre for buka puasa, some ceramah also, then after terawikh, we went over to kak arifah's place for more buka puasa event. aiyo..bukan badan saje penat, perut pun penat.
We got home at 12am. Had some chit chat with Ika until 2am, then ZzZzZz..pastu bangun sahur (aku cuma makan sekeping roti je sbb kenyang lagi makan banyak sangat malam tu), pastu tido balik lepas subuh..bangun lewat.
During the day, I taught Ika how to make kuih cornflakes. We had so much fun in the kitchen today, you know sometimes it's fun to have a friend with you in the kitchen.
Kuih cornflakes kitorang menjadi tp aku rasa mcm tahun lepas punya lagi sedap.

old picture

As I browse through my folders today, I suddenly found an old picture of me, kak shifa, kasffi and hamdan near tower bridge, london.. but there were not just us, ada lagi sorang yg nak bergambar jugak :)

can you find him? (click to enlarge)

Pesanan ibu

Semalam waktu tengah buka puasa ibu pesan,
'Nanti korang adik beradik, jangan cerita hal buruk antara satu sama lain. Jangan suka menyampai2 cerita. Kalau tak suka, cakap terus terang depan2. Kalau tak nanti adik beradik boleh berpecah belah.'

Harini ibu pesan,
'Jangan senang percaya cerita2 orang. Jangan suka mengumpat. Kalau tak suka dgn seseorang, jangan cerita hal buruk dia kat orang lain melainkan dgn keluarga sendiri (mcm ibu). Cerita kat kawan baik pun jangan'

2 lapis

stokin 2 lapis, sweater 2 lapis, seluar 2 lapis..
hidung pulak selsema..ini paling tension. arghh

tertido

Harini masa dalam bas nak balik rumah, aku mengantuk sgt..jet lag lagi..pastu tertido.
pastu tiba2 terjaga, tak tau aku kat mana, mcm kat area2 kampung je. org dalam bas yg tadi ramai, tinggal 2, 3 org je.
aku turun bas, tunggu bas yg patah balik..aku tgk sign board, kat Burby. Burby ni kat mana? aku pun taktau. tak penah dengar pun. Nasib baik bas pass aku ni boleh guna kat Burby.
Lepastu masa patah balik, aku tunggu bila la nak sampai..jauhnye..
Lama gile la aku tido tadi smpai boleh terlajak jauh. mmg tido mati, tak sedar apa2.

Back in Glasgow

Okay just a quick update.
I am now back in Glasgow. Gloomy Glasgow. It rains all the time.
Thankfully, we had no problem at the airport..But I was a bit worried coz I didnt know that I should bring my offer letter with me until I saw Rasika (my new friend from Thailand that I met on the plane) took out her offer letter from her bag to show it as a prove that she's a student to the immigration officer. Luckily, the officer that we had was a Pakistani lady, not a Scottish. If it was a Scottish, gerenti dia tak kasi lepas sampai dia nampak offer letter tu. Phew!

Me and abg were not fasting since we were travelling for a very long time (aduh, banyak hari la kena ganti puasa nnt). We bought some burgers from McD in Dubai, but I haven't ate it till now..I'm gonna have it tonight.It's a chicken burger.

Today I went to college to register and see Linda (she told me to wait outside, and I sat there for 1 hour until she came). She gave me my timetable (My classes are on Tuesdays, Wednesdays, and Thursdays only. weee!). Then she brought me to fill in my enrolement form. Then she told me to see Jennifer at Hatfield campus (aku da malas bila dengar kena pegi Hatfield) to discuss about fees payment. OK lepastu aku pegi Hatfield, jalan kaki sampai semput2 (sbb dah gemuk), naik bus dari bandar..blablabla..
I argued with Jennifer when she said I need to pay 5000pounds for the fees becoz I'm on a student visa. And I said, 'that's not fair, I've been staying here for nearly 5 years, and why am I not allowed to pay as a local student whilst last year I was allowed to?' Then she said, write to the college principal like I did last year about my condition and fees etc. kalau boleh dapat, dapat..kalau tak dpt, matila..

I met a Kazakhstan student at Hatfield. Jennifer introduced me to him. He asked me, 'are you 14? 17?' . I said, ' Im 19'. Mulut dia ternganga, he looked at me from head to toe. I said, 'I know I'm small' and then he laughed. He said 'I'm 19 too, but you're small, and I'm big. I even look like a grandfather.' He is big, 7 kaki ada kot. When I asked him about his fees, he said he only needs to pay 1000pounds, and he's only been here for 1 year something. Mana aci!

I miss Malaysia. I miss the hot weather. I miss Putrajaya. I miss Ampang. I miss kuih-kuih. I miss bazaar ramadhan. But above all, I miss him the most. Only now I know how it feels like to be lonely. I've never felt this way before. I need to keep myself busy (dah start busy pun, sbb dah ada assignment kena buat.Baru register dah ada kerja..and the due date is tomorrow!)

my likes and dislikes

- I like cheesecakes, especially if they have choc chip cookies or anything chocolate in it..same goes to ice creams

- I hate strawberry ice cream.

- I like taking walks...if the weather is right.

- I like travelling..I love it when I travel to college for 45mins, lama-lama pun takpe. because travelling is relaxing.

- I am a poor time-keeper. selalu lambat. hari-hari, setiap kali mesti lambat.

- I really hate plucking bean sprouts. Sangat-sangat malas kalau kena buat.

- I like 'Megasale' or 'Summer Sale' or 'Winter Sale' or 'Raya Sale'. I like Primark and Carboot Sale. I am so thankful that they exist.

- I hate it when I need to walk from the bus stop at Jalan Ampang to No4 Jalan Halaman 14. Rasa mcm nak pengsan setiap kali jalan masuk dalam.

- I like chakoi and kuih bom.

- I hate a cashier called 'MAN' who works at 'SNACKS' or 'SNAX' or however they spell it near KLCC.

- I hate 'orang tua gatal'.

- I like KL at night, sbb banyak lampu warna warni.
- I like Emirates' perfume and hand lotion that they put in their toilets.

boring tahap dewa

I'm lying on my bed, looking at the window..silau.sakit mata.

My tummy hurts, and my back hurts. sbb tgh meniarap.

I'm listening to Alif and Raihan chit chatting in the living room. I think they're playing video games. Oh yes, I just heard Raihan said 'tembak la!' and they're screaming like crazy.

Malam td aku beli Rainbow Peak and Chocolate Chip ice cream (both are from Paddlepop), rupanye chocolate chip lg sedap dari rainbow la..I shared them with Alif and Raihan..nanti sebelum balik uk nak beli choc chip lg.

I'd just surfed other blogs through my friends'..and I thought, how can I make myself rajin to update my blog from time to time like them? becoz usually I dont even know what to write about and my laziness is growing deeper and deeper everyday..arghhh

skrg ni pun..sbb dah bosan sgt stuck kat putrajaya, taktau nak buat apa, baru la nak update blog. ish.

Okay now i'm starting to get sleepy, becoz i only slept like 3 hrs last night, and i didnt go back to sleep after sahur..skrg mengantuk.

nak tido pulak.

btw, i only have 2 days left in Malaysia. Then I'll be leaving for Glasgow. Ish. Malasnye nak start kelas balik.

Putrajaya

I like Putrajaya, it's not congested, nice architectural buildings, nice designs..

but theres no public transport apart from the buses, so it's hard to travel around..

i'm stuck in Putrajaya now.crap.

leaving soon

Only a few days left..
I'm gonna miss this place..