It's Mother's Day tomorrow. I sent a message to ibu, wishing her Happy Mother's Day and told her what a great mother she is, and let her know that we love her so much. The message was not not long, just a few lines, but I shed tears as I wrote it (I can cry very2 easily if it's about ibu honestly)
I had been a bad daughter, I got angry and upset with her sometimes, but I never told her any of that, I usually keep them to myself or I would tell Raihan when I could no longer hold. I had been kinda selfish when sometimes I thought that Ibu doesn't loves me the way she loves Raihan or Abg. That's a very childish and selfish thought. She had sacrificed so much for me, she had spent a lot of her money to pay my college fees, she got really worried when I had a bad fever last winter, she always reminds me to drink plenty of water because she's worried if I ever get dehydrated, she woke up from her sleep and took care of me when I had my period pain, she taught me how to cook, she taught me how to take care of the house, she brought me to stay in the UK with her and sent me to school over there, she taught me when I had problems with maths, she taught me how to read the Qur'an, she has done so much for me and those are priceless.
I'm feeling guilty for the negative thoughts I had for her, she is my mum and she had taken care of me since I was born, and her love is endless.
I miss her, and I miss ayah also.
p/s Happy Mother's Day to Chitam as well, she has been the best mother-cat in the whole world!