what does my birthday mean? (I think this one is totally true)

At first glance, people think you are quiet type of person. Actually you are cheerful, but conditionally. You will show your joyful character only in good mood. One the other hand, when you are moody, no one would dare to be around. Because of your emotion fluctuation and frank character, some find you hard to be around. Your Love, You hardly show your feeling towards opposite sex no matter how much you like him/her. Your partner also has similar character so your love affairs often take quite a while to flourish. Time tells it all. Your sincerity makes you very attractive.

Strengths: Strong will, outstanding courage and self-confidence. They are excellent leaders as long as they do not over task their followers.

Weaknesses: Obstinate and intolerant.

Best Job: Financial work. (except for this one..I really hate finance)

Last moment with my portfolio

dalam beg besar tu, folio aku..dalam beg kecik tu, sketchbook2 aku

Nampak gambar atas ni? 1st time aku upload gambar kat blogger ni. haha..Dua beg kat atas ni akan dihantar ke University of Dundee esok pagi (sebenarnya aku tak pasti boleh ke hantar dua beg, tak pasal2 kang beg kecik tu kena campak kt tepi parit)
Esok pagi pukul 7am (seperti yg dirancangkan) aku bertolak ke Dundee Uni (yg aku risau2 kan selama ni)..
Terima kasih kepada ayah yg sanggup drive hantar aku gi Dundee sana (2 jam dari Glasgow).
Tapi yg merunsingkan aku sekarang, saiz lukisan2 aku over-sized dari beg portfolio, tak boleh zip..aku takut lukisan rosak atau hilang..ish no no no..

baru siap tampal menampal nama dan alamat

tengok tengok..begini la rupa beg portfolio aku esok..terlalu gemok dan besar..ada 31 keping board lukisan kat dalam.. berat gile! risau aku

opss ok..habis sudah sesi melihat gambar. masa untuk tidur..(perut kenyang, baru lepas makan roti 2 keping, rasa nak muntah pun ada haha) ok, nak gosok gigi, dan ZZzzzZ

I'm truely disappointed

Letting go of someone you care about is not easy...
it's the hardest and the least thing i could do..
i've always told myself, stay strong, be patient, jgn terlalu ikut perasaan, and think about good things instead of the bads..
but...my 'strength' alone is not enough, i need his support too, i need him to help me, otherwise I cant stay like this for long..
I wanted him to stay and help me..but things didnt go like wht i hoped for...I'm truely disappointed..


I cant write for long..I need time..

Did I Marry the Right Person?

This is a very good article. Those who are still single may learn something from here...
Those who are already married may take it as a guideline to improve your marriage & relationship ... (Taken from Jiwang Groups)

DID I MARRY THE RIGHT PERSON?

During one of our seminars, a woman asked a common question. She said, "How do I know if I married the right person?"
I noticed that there was a large man sitting next to her so I said, "It depends. Is that your husband?"
In all seriousness, she answered "How do you know?"

Let me answer this question because the chances are good that it's weighing on your mind.

Here's the answer.
EVERY relationship has a cycle. In the beginning, you fell in love with your spouse / partner . You anticipated their call, wanted their touch, and liked their idiosyncrasies (unconventional behavior/habit).

Falling in love with your spouse wasn't hard. In fact, it was a completely natural and spontaneous experience.
You didn't have to DO anything. That's why it's called "falling" in love... Because it's happening TO YOU .

People in love sometimes say, "I was swept of my feet." Think about the imagery of that __expression. It implies that you were just standing there; doing nothing, and then something came along and happened TO YOU ..

Falling in love is easy . It's a passive and spontaneous experience. But after a few years of marriage, the euphoria (excitement) of love fades. It's the natural cycle of EVERY relationship . Slowly but surely, phone calls become a bother (if they come at all), touch is not always welcome (when it happens), and your spouse's idiosyncrasies , instead of being cute, drive you nuts.

The symptoms of this stage vary with every relationship, but if you think about your marriage, you will notice a dramatic difference between the initial stage when you were in love and a much duller or even angry subsequent stage.

At this point, you and/or your spouse might start asking, "Did I marry the right person?"
And as you and your spouse reflect on the euphoria of the love you once had, you may begin to desire that experience with someone else.
This is when marriages breakdown . People blame their spouse for their unhappiness and look outside their marriage for fulfillment.

Extramarital fulfillment comes in all shapes and sizes. Infidelity is the most obvious.
But sometimes people turn to work, a hobby, a friendship, excessive TV, or abusive substances.

But the answer to this dilemma does NOT lie outside your marriage. It lies within it.
I'm not saying that you couldn't fall in love with someone else.
You could.

And TEMPORARILY you'd feel better. But you'd be in the same situation a few years later. Because (listen carefully to this):

THE KEY TO SUCCEEDING IN MARRIAGE IS NOT FINDING THE RIGHT PERSON; IT'S LEARNING TO LOVE THE PERSON YOU FOUND.

SUSTAINING love is not a passive or spontaneous experience. It'll NEVER just happen to you. You can't "find" LASTING love.. You have to "make" it day in and day out. That's why we have the __expression "the labor of love." Because it takes time, effort, and energy . And most importantly, it takes WISDOM . You have to know WHAT TO DO to make your marriage work.

Make no mistake about it. Love is NOT a mystery. There are specific things you can do (with or without your spouse) to succeed with your marriage.

Just as there are physical laws of the universe (such as gravity), there are also laws for relationships.
Just as the right diet and exercise program makes you physically stronger, certain habits in your relationship WILL make your marriage stronger.
It's a direct cause and effect. If you know and apply the laws, the results are predictable... you can "make"love ..

Love in marriage is indeed a "decision"... Not just a feeling.

Remember this always :

"God determines who walks into your life. It is up to you to decide who you let walk away, who you let stay, and who you refuse to let go."

cuti owhh cuti

aktiviti2 aku di waktu cuti:

- menghadap laptop
- makan
- tido
- masak kalu rajin
- kemas2 bilik
- menghadap laptop
- makan
- menghadap laptop
- makan


sangat menyihatkan utk tumbesaran lemak2 di badan bukan?
bosan gilerrr maaaa...nak keluar tp takde duit..isk3
lepas ni, aku aim nk blaja masak la..
buat cake ke, nasi beriyani ke, buat air soya ke, apa2 je laa..
janji, masak. sbb aku dh jarang2 masak banding dulu, nk kena upgrade skill.

ok. time to sleep. it's 2am..