I have communicating problems. this still has not been solved. help me..

I found these winter photos in abang's computer, they were taken in November 2008. I think they're nice to be shared, and it reminds me how gloomy winter can be.

a rose covered with snow

a frozen spider-web

ibu in gloomy Queen's Park

feeding the ducks.. I pity them they must be cold, they don't have jackets

I can imagine how freakin COLD this is

frozen puddle that turned into ice pieces

the frozen puddle

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I made fish fillet, baked potatoes with some vegetables for lunch today. It's an easy cooking and inexpensive too. I made for 2, coz I thought abg might want to have some. But he went to his friend's wedding ceremony, so I ended up eating alone. Chitam came to accompany me.

It's raining very heavily at the moment, rough wind with the familiar sound it makes when it's windy in Glasgow :) I miss...

Raspberry cheesecake I made last 2 days

I really can't wait to start uni. Staying at home, sleeping and eating all day, I really need to get a life.

Mother's Day

It's Mother's Day tomorrow. I sent a message to ibu, wishing her Happy Mother's Day and told her what a great mother she is, and let her know that we love her so much. The message was not not long, just a few lines, but I shed tears as I wrote it (I can cry very2 easily if it's about ibu honestly)
I had been a bad daughter, I got angry and upset with her sometimes, but I never told her any of that, I usually keep them to myself or I would tell Raihan when I could no longer hold. I had been kinda selfish when sometimes I thought that Ibu doesn't loves me the way she loves Raihan or Abg. That's a very childish and selfish thought. She had sacrificed so much for me, she had spent a lot of her money to pay my college fees, she got really worried when I had a bad fever last winter, she always reminds me to drink plenty of water because she's worried if I ever get dehydrated, she woke up from her sleep and took care of me when I had my period pain, she taught me how to cook, she taught me how to take care of the house, she brought me to stay in the UK with her and sent me to school over there, she taught me when I had problems with maths, she taught me how to read the Qur'an, she has done so much for me and those are priceless.
I'm feeling guilty for the negative thoughts I had for her, she is my mum and she had taken care of me since I was born, and her love is endless.
I miss her, and I miss ayah also.



p/s Happy Mother's Day to Chitam as well, she has been the best mother-cat in the whole world!

a few updates

Latest updates:

My exhibition at LA Bartenders in Glasgow last week went well, although we got a little panic a few days before it was held..alhamdulillah. Probably I'm gonna sell one painting to someone, I still have to wait for a confirmation from Ian. That was my 10th exhibition if I'm not mistaken. Fostering Art will be hooking up with the Shooting Gallery and the street art Recoat Gallery on the 22nd April for an auction.

Last year me and Ian were planning to have my solo exhibition in the summer this year. We are still planning, Ian still has to find a venue for me, and I am still working on a few paintings. I am pulling out my best to produce the best paintings I could do. I would be very3 much happy if this plan works, because currently Syafiq is in Nottingham until end of June. If it works, then I can go back to Glasgow, and meet him. We met for the 1st time in Glasgow 1 year ago during summer, which was around this time, so if we're going to meet again in the summer, wouldn't that be sweet? :)

We went to UiTM Shah Alam last Friday to go to the registry office since we hadn't received any news from them, except "kami belum terima lagi surat permohonan cik" padahal dah hantar sebulan yg lepas. Dipendekkan cerita, after we met the officer and discussed, the officer told me to go for an interview on the next day (I was totally unprepared for any interviews! surat beranak pun tak bawak) But thankfully, the interview went good, alhamdulillah.. Now I only have to wait for an offer letter. I applied for a degree in Textile Design. They also told me that I can apply for a minor course, and I think I'm gonna take Painting/Fine Art as my minor subject. I wonder if that's like a double degree?

Ibu already bought a flight ticket from Singapore to Glasgow. Her flight is next week on the 26th April. She's going to have her PhD viva soon. Let's pray for her best :)And then she'll be coming home with ayah in June.

Thanks to Alyssa Monks for inspiring me to be a hard-working painter. I envy her paintings.

Cheers!

my blog

My blog is so quiet and boring, no accessories, no cantik2, no pictures even.
I wish I could hire someone (aka an assistant) to decorate my blog, or perhaps do another website for my artworks. All my artists friends have their own websites with their CVs stated on (even on their facebook) except me. I'm so lazy.

I am now a lady. haha

Some changes happened inside me I realise.. a different feeling..Each time I look at my pregnant friends, and see their babies, and when I look at the image of a baby in a mother's womb, I feel like I can't wait to have a baby too, I want to get pregnant too..I didn't realise when this happened, but I'm sure it's been quite some time but I kept it to myself, afraid of what people might gonna say. I think it's normal for a woman to have this feeling, since before this, I would have gotten really scared each time I think about pregnancy and delivering babies, but now I've changed..maybe because I've grown up to be a 'lady' now, jadi ciri2 wanita dah ada? hahaha..

But Jiha is with me, she cant wait to have babies too, so I'm not alone :)